May. I haven’t posted here since May! Funny how time flies.
Then again, sometimes, it drags on for aeons.
Those of you who know me fairly well know I suffer bouts of depression. This is not conducive to imagination. During these times, I often don’t have one. I’ve often wondered what would happen if I found an agent who loves my work, but I already know the answer to that. Though I suffer from depression, I don’t renege on commitments. Ever! I still go to work (which has become full time, unfortunately) and I still do the best job I can. And no one at work really notices that I’m having trouble at all.
That would be slightly different if I had an agent however in that I would certainly let her know what my life is like and I would guarantee she would still get the best of me, regardless of whether I was in a blue phase or not. You see, I love to write. But when I’m in a blue phase, I don’t do much I don’t absolutely HAVE to do, either by rote or request. I do the housework that has to be done, I make the dinners, do the laundry, but after a long day at work, my brain sort of shuts down.
And this is where the problem lies. I haven’t been able to push myself to write much most nights because I’m tired at the end of the day from working with the public who, by the way, has deteriorated in the last 25 years, but that’s another post. I’ve been working on stories I’ve worked on for a long time though. When I decided I’d do NaNo again this year, I knew I needed a new story, a new idea. I won last year, but barely. I want to win this year too. But nothing has sparked my imagination. None of the characters that parade through my head daily are speaking to me, none of them are telling me any of their stories, and I’m running out of time.
When you’re lost for an idea, where do you go to find that prompt or spark or whatever you’d like to call it…that magic that clicks and fills your head with a story that has to be put to paper? Tell me in comments.
I’m looking for ideas so let me know where you get yours from!